the end

what is of essence is nt the time which passed,
but how you spend it.

one and a half years is long time,
which was short,
but as it is,
it has passed.

time t appreciate this blog's title.
all said,
let fate decide.
trust luck.

t my hsmates,

i ll enjoy the moments of stress where craziness overtake us,
the second-hand smoke from brunei,
the times we laughed,
the times we laugh even louder,
and,
yeah,
thx 4 ur coms.

perfect art.

the art of making fun of urself.

of laughing at urself.

of absorbing the joke.

of being the joke.

is the most beautiful art of all.

the clown in u.

express it.

laugh at urself.

and people will laugh with u.

valentines

it all started on monday i think.
ko unleashed his valentines plan on us.

'we have 12 girls and 11 guys in the class.
y not we jus draw lots and have couples for valentines?
and one lucky guy gets 2 girls.'

lol.
we were supposed to be sporting.
at least its better than the cucumbers we gave the girls last year.

further discussion brought down to alyssa being exempted as shes nt single.

drew.
got a 4.

well, its sure funny as each couple was revealed.
any1 gettin kong will be sure suprised.
underneath his roundness....
is a baby dragon.

zhen got me.

house rules:
must get something 4 partner.
sit together, lunch together..
lol...

i was lazy to think.
seriously.

so i did it the daniel way.

collected data from various sources.
compounded it.
and form a complex compound.

lol.
some suggestions were more outrageous than tunas.
for goodness sake? basketballs?

***

well, even the florist is against me:

'flowers for valentines day?'

'yup. do u have hibiscus?'

no joke man, she flared up like an angry mung bean.

'no, our shop dont sell hibiscus. u want, u go to the roadside and pick. no, i tell u, our shop dont sell hibiscus.'

imagine timothy in full bitch mode. lol.

'so, errr what bout these?'
i took some white flowers.
they look like those u see when u go to funerals.
nt bad, funeral flowers 4 valentines.
sniff*
its beautiful.

'u said its 4 valentines? dont take them. usually ppl will get roses, not that.'

lol.
whats her problem?
i was about to give her a sureshan frown.
then i thought better of it.
no time.
grabbed some bright yellow brush.

' ill take this.'

she gave me some dirty cross disgusted frown.
then passed them to an old woman.
and turn back to her telephone askin bout some visma place near kepong.

***

i need to get the tuna out before the flower.
feel like punking her.

sharon.
an angel.

well, she did suffer a bit on my behalf.
holdin d yellow stuff.
kena shoot straight away by su ern and zhen when they came.

lol.
zhen was like in hysterics when i gave her the tunas can by can.
6 of them.
well, i do need to work on my expressionless blur face more.
but i cant let sharon get underfire for longer.
i do owe her a lot.

then only i gave the flowers.

and i got chocolate milk packets.
6 of them.








i messaged my hsmate,
'lol...'




his reply?
' oh lord jesus'

O' LORD JESUUSSSS

i hold no grudge against jesus.

in fact,

i respect him.

brilliant guy.

died with so much style.



i ve read the whole bible.
and memorised luke and acts.
and sat in for god knows how many cell groups.
and fellowships.
and prayer meetings.


and 3 people just simply threatens to ruin jesus's good image before me.

on a fine friday night.
my hsmate's friend said she wanted to visit him, with some friends.
well, thats fine.

then my hsmate asked me to introduce myself.
ok... no problem with that.

then i spotted the familiar booklet the guy was holdin.
o.y.g.
sometin's wrong.

they asked what religions we were.
'buddhist.'
'free but more to buddhist.'
' me? im a muslim"
went back to the room.
my hsmates:'no he is just jokin, he is a free thinker'
dont they know how to act?


got pulled out by
" eh? where daniel went?'

cooperated.
give face.

then they started askin.
whats ur purpose in life?

my hsmate: to find real me.
second hsmate: sometin bout wildlife.
my turn.

"so, daniel? whats ur purpose in life?"
'to glorify god.
to spread the news of the kingdom of god to the ends of the world'

as soon the words were out of my mouth,
cant help but laugh.
covered my face.
this was so funny.
like takin the words out of their mouth.
they must be mistakin me for being shy.
like i care.
lol.

then,
lectures.
his english sounds wrong in a right way.
the girls' keep on using an unnatural hypnotysin voice.
...
(interject lots of amens and lord jesus in that voice which makes one feel like shiverin, just like a limp french fry)
...
gloves created for hand.
not for feet.
...
...
sometin bout names
and i realised they wanted us to chant
O LORD JESUSSSS.
5 times.
the time i feel the stupidest in my life.
even other christian meetins are more natural feelin.
...
...

then talked bout satan.
archangel created by god.


'whats his name again?'
lol.
they come here to preach and dont even know some stupid name.
'lucifer?'
tried to be helpful.
'yeah, lucifer.' the other 2 confirmed.

...
...

well at last they are gone.

智者不言，言者不智。

desire

why do we desire anyting?
why do we strive to get what we want?
why do we want?

kong said,
isnt it better to just work in seven eleven and earn just enough to feed urself?
why study medicine? when the whole million dollars can be used for something else?

it is human nature to desire.
to desire too much we call greed.
not to desire is to be detached.

yet to call it human nature is an excuse.

yet being detached is not human.
we call them divine.

as even buddha was once human.
then he sat under a tree.
and detached.
till he realised how useless being detached is.

being totally detached is useless,
as well not be borned,
it would save so much rice,
reduce co2 produced by so much.

moderation is the best.
to rejoice and be satisfied
yet still have the drive to achieve.

chiun min signature depressing question:
why do we live?
whats the purpose?
why do we eat?
why?

its just because we were created for the purpose of living, eating, surviving, reproducing and dying.

and why were we created?
we may just be an accident for all we know...

jesus said he will bring you to heaven.
and he just tells u theres a feast there.
and not everybody can go there.

sidharta gautama is a bit better.
at least he describes more bout the land of bliss.
every tree...
every rock...
every petal...

even creating demigods,
guan yins,

well, to be fair,
he did live longer than jesus.
jesus only had thirty years.
he did have more time for creativity.
and more time to think.

the heart sutra:

Body is nothing more than emptiness,
emptiness is nothing more than body.
The body is exactly empty,
and emptiness is exactly body.

The other four aspects of human existence
-- feeling, thought, will, and consciousness --
are likewise nothing more than emptiness,
and emptiness nothing more than they.

All things are empty:
Nothing is born, nothing dies,
nothing is pure, nothing is stained,
nothing increases and nothing decreases.
So, in emptiness,
there is no body, no feeling,
no thought, no will, no consciousness.
There are no eyes, no ears,
no nose, no tongue,
no body, no mind.
There is no seeing, no hearing,
no smelling, no tasting,
no touching, no imagining.
There is nothing seen, nor heard,
nor smelled, nor tasted,
nor touched, nor imagined.
There is no ignorance, and no end to ignorance.
There is no old age and death,
and no end to old age and death.
There is no suffering,
no cause of suffering,
no end to suffering,
no path to follow.
There is no attainment of wisdom,
and no wisdom to attain.
The Bodhisattvas rely on the Perfection of Wisdom,
and so with no delusions, they feel no fear,
and have Nirvana here and now.

This is truth that cannot be doubted. Say it so:
Gaté, gaté, paragaté, parasamgaté. Bodhi! Svaha!
Gone, gone, gone over, gone fully over. Awakened! So be it!

道可道，非常道。
名可名，非常名。

the path which can be shown,
is not an eternal path.

those that can be named,
are those that are not eternal.

ideals

are there any ideal guys?
no.

ko: hey, look at me, cant u see the five letters on me? I D E A L?

* * *
but hang on,

is there any ideal girls?

no.

yet we dream bout being ideal.
while idealness is just a dream.
where we look for idealness,
the idealness is found only where it is not ideal.
but nature is always ideal.
we follow our instincts,
which will lead us to idealness.

while reproducing,
we look for partners with the best genes.
so that the next generation would survive.
the urge to mate with the one we presume to have the best genes,
the attraction.
its natural.
yet what we forget is whether we ourselves have the best genes which attract the opposite sex.
so look upon urself.
n think.

prime minister. ex.

peace.
whats peace?
people say they want peace.
yet they themselves do not uphold the peace.

as mahathir say,
evry1 does smthg 4 a reason.
no one goes on the street n punch sm1 on his nose for no reason.

except 4 me.

but thats nt the point.

the point is,
theres a reason theres war.

im nt sayin war is good.

but as a matter of fact,
its a struggle for existence.
as darwin said.
jus that war has evolved.
from claws and talons.
to sharper claws and talons.
till now,
an atomic bomb,
an even sharper talon.

to see the reason of war,
you see from both sides of parties.
both of them think they are right.
want their own way,
war starts.
killing starts.

but the logic is the same.
they are fighting for themselves.
you dont see any1 fightin for some1 else 4 no reason.
they are fightin for what they think is right.
though what they think is right may be wrong.
as the other side think is wrong,
which in turn the other side which think they are right may be wrong themselves.

and all in all its just a cycle with no end.
n no peace.

yet it continues.
cos nature dictates.
human nature is like that.
and there will still be war.
as sure as siblings do squabble.
as sure as couples do quarrel.
as it is their nature.
and nature dictates.
the time may come when theres no war.
but war will follow after.
then peace after war.
and war after peace.
a cycle of no end.
but ends when the world does.

our prime minister.
ex.
has a way with words.
he does say what he thinks is right.
as evry1 does.
but its the ability to make people think the way he think is right that i respect.
a very rare ability which made him prime minister.
though i wont criticise him.
cos he does has his own reasons for his own actions.
be it personal or watsoever.

n im nt stupid enough to get myslf persecuted.

of women and men.

please note i hold no responsibility for any errors watsoever in facts or info.
cos its just wat i notice.

males are attracted to females who look like their mom.
females are attracted to males like their dad.
they are attracted to them cos its the face they looked upon the most in their life.

females's brain think in a different frequency then male's.
we have a hamster.
female: its soooooo cuuuuuute.
male: yup. its cute. so?

females have their own logic.
males have their own too.
females read body language better than males.
though some males do read body language,
but dont do anytin bout it.

when males shop,
they go to the shop,
order what they want,
take it,
n go.
when females shop,
they go to the shop,
look around,
try everytin they like,
they go to the next shop,
n repeat the process.

when males get presents,
the more practical it is,
theres a greater chance he wont leave it in some corner n 4get bout it.
when females get presents,
the more expensive n useless it is,
the happier she is.

the art of seduction of women.
=art of being a jerk.
seriously.
they look at a jerk,
and let hormones and motherly instinct kick in.
hey presto,
shes in love.
but magnitude of jerkiness must be finely controlled to perfection to yield results.
too jerky n you r a clown.
not jerky n you are boring.
in simple words,
personality.
its not the only factor,
theres more.
a lot more.
but im lazy.

what bout vice versa?
what do men look 4 in women?
zhen asked me this.
her exact words,
:what would make you be attracted to a girl?

i cant answer 4 all males.
physically,
which i dont have any control on,
as i said.
she would be like my mom.
when shes young.

otherwise,
i wont tell u.
cos mom wants me t get girlfriend but not now.
NOT NOW.
well, i found her loophole.
which means i dont need 1.
yet.
not that i opposed to gettin 1.
its cos im not matured.
n the case rests here.

but generally,
males want females to be beautiful.
n definition of beautiful varies with each male.
males want females to be confident.
n levels of confidence varies with each male.
males want females to understand him.
someone they can trust.

theres more.
but as i told u.
im lazy.
n i need my chocolate milk.
so long.

tell me. why?

life's full of mysteries.
yet men strife to uncover them.
cos it's men's nature.
curiosity.
like mine.
the fools they are.
when they discover,
the greatest mystery.
is to remain a mystery.
all's clear to me.
cos i failed my ielts.
shouldnt have ask the examiner's mom's name.